friends and i are drifting apart. slooooowwwwwly but surely. i did see it coming. ah what the hell. it does not really matter actually. u want me, come take me. i'll accept u with open arms. gays, lesbos, crazy, lunatic, virgin, whore, drink, smoke, drugs, lamer, joker, the trying too hard kinda,sinners,sinbad, smoothly english spoken, malay jiwang kind, lips of literature, stupid, smart, mute,minahrep, matrep, ex convict,whoever. i dun care where you come from as long as ur sincere. no need no facade. be original. i'll accept ur flaws and imperfections. your aptness i will admire. you want to play come and go? jaded game of hide and seek? go on, ur desire. i have plenty of friends. losing one does not matter because you know why? because if u think i dun deserve you as a friend then you dun deserve me either. i'll live without you. at least i'm happy with what i got. you'll be surprise with the type of people im mixing with baybee. losing u a normal school girl does not matter to me one bit dear. i think i learn far more lot from people whom you shun down upon. the school drop outs, surprisingly who widen my perception towards all of them. who taught me the true meaning of life and regret, which can only be discovered through experience, and none through thick heavy textbooks. there are things which are not taught in school u know. some things some teachers don't even noe about.

so you say you have the brains, with all these qualifications in hand, u boast, u swank, u brag. my oh my how shallow can you be. that will not guarantee you glee,love. they don't include "lifetime bliss guaranteed" next to your certs and qualifications.

for what i have now baby, i am truly grateful. whether or not i have enough money [OF MY OWN] to buy expensive Zara merchandise or even enough kachings[OF MY OWN]
to even go shop for a new pair of shoes.so u laugh at me each time i go buy a new pack of elephant glue just to keep the sole of my shoe intact? laugh all u want dear. as long as i am happy, nothing's gonna bring me down. not even ur sinister smiles or laughter. i dun need ur sympathy what more empathy. the stuffs i posses now, proudly said, are all mine, with my own hard earned money. save. starve. you name it.

i am grateful to have some people by me, with most of my friends still magnetically intact. and with you baby, who make me live now, in ecstacy. severe bliss. heaven-send.