i am only human and i make mistakes. people seems to misinterpret the message that i want to get across and misunderstand me. usually it doesn't bother me at all. not one bit. even if it does, i would choose the people in random to let them out to and just, forget abt it the following day.but when it actually came from your relatives it hits real hard. like what i told shaie, "what that has been said to me yesterday night has caused me great pains. i am really sore at them.ape drg da ckp ngn aku da terbawak2 sampai now i'm having fever." no warnings no nothing, words shoot just the moment i stepped into the house from 12 HOURS WORK. and when i told you i don't think i'm going to Jakarta, what did you say? you said i'm money minded. MONEY MINDED PEOPLE, SHE CALLED ME MONEY MINDED!! LETS LAUGH OUT LOUD. BECAUSE FARHANA IS MONEY MINDED! hello ok. whatever i buy came from my own money. be it clothes or anything else. from top to toe, left to right, up and down. and u said im MONEY MINDED? have you girls actually seen me shopping at ZARA? hello??????? money minded?? ask faadhilah where do i always go shop ok. u people think i dun want to own expensive classy stuffs like what you guys have now? huh?? you think i dun? but why don't i? i have my pay. i don't have to ask them from you. because you know why? huh why? i think of you and the family. what thje family needs. and you called me money minded? EH!!! ANAK KAU YANG MONEY MINDED NIE JUGAK LA K KAO MINTAK DUIT LAU TAKDE DUIT! u think ui work for fun huh? u think i have never thought of what if i dun get into a poly? what if i get into a poly and need a laptop? wad if i have to retake my o's, who's gonna pay??? what if i want to get into a private business course?? tak pernah pk? you think i want to see you work your ass off like what you did last time to pay kak noor's fee? u think i want? i am trying to ease whatever difficulties that you're having now. and yet you call me MONEY MINDED???????
and let the nurses there be the witness ok. as to whom always go to the hospital to visit my lovely atok. let them. be it rain or shine. tired or not, work night shifts or day. die tanak makan, aku suap. die dahagakan kasih sayang aku manjekan die. aku belai die, kisses after kisses. only he noes ok. because i felt it. because it was the only time in my seventeen years plus plus plus that he kissed me in the cheek AFTER THREE ATTEMPTS.! ask him la ok. and yet you said what? orang tua tu pat hospital, aku takde tengok. I SHOULD HAVE SAID DAT STRAIGHT TO YOUR FACE OK! KEPALA BUTOH. KAU ADE TENGOK AK? AH? ADE? EH PUKI, ORANG TUA TU TAK SAKIT KAO LETAK DLM HOSPITAL. SAPE YANG ZALIM NIE SKG??? AH BUTOH AH.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
posted by what i love about myself - total honesty at 1:13 PM
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