fiq's last day at work, and mach. suprisingly, them very emo. with fiq sanggup nak jalan g t2 after work which is dismissed due to much lethargy. met najib cute during our supper break. bobal kontol. a debate we had, najib and i, with fiqo just to watch and agree to everything that has been said by this wise lady.
it struck me now that i am actually 18.unbelievable shit. 18 and i don't feel like one. then also, najib called me kakak2. its just the way i see to things. 18 and still living. still making the same sins.still behaving.and you boy, is my favourite mistake. for the sin that i am still commiting, to me it's worth it.he labelled me bad. he said he knew i won't go far. well you thought wrong boy. clearly you do not know me very well. yes. i dun go clubs [mot yet] i dun drink and i dun smoke. i dun do all these things to give people the impression that i am bad. that i am rebellious. i dun do bad. i think bad. because i am just born bad. you get me? so dun you try to stop me from what i am doing now because seriously, you will never succeed. itu batu ade duduk pat atas kepala aku k.
the life that i am living now is blissed. cannot ask for more. anything more perfect and it will be just a fairy-tale.i live not in fantasy, but reality. and the reality now is, i fancy him and so does he. the feeling is mutual. we are falling, sinking deeper and deeper into our delicious romance, maybe its just a phase that both of us are going through or maybe, like he said, the star crossed at the wrong time. oh well. if this is the life that God is granting me, that i am living it. to the fullest. as long as i am happy and everything will be smooth- going. not anything more now, because like he said, i am his secret, his precious. and thus our secrets only lies within. you guys can only go figure.
Labels: i have serious trust issues
posted by what i love about myself - total honesty at 3:21 PM