kau rase kalau aku minom GROW aku boleh grow lincah tak?

Tak eh?

I can't seem to know why i always want inappropriate things. Like having a kid?

I mean, this is not what 18s will hope to have, not at this stage, i believe

No, i am not hinting that i am preggie as a matter of fact i am a virgin but i love kids they keep my mind off things. They are jovial and pure, innocent.

I like how atiqah comes by my pushcart, with her hands open wide, shouting "KAKAK!!!!!" obviously, wanting a hug from me. I like how Afifah comes to me after tuition, saying "bye kakak, i'm going home." And i like whisking Ashikin away, and bring her to see the display of telephones at the oppositte shop. How she looked at me and smile, and then lie on my shoulder. I like it when Darnish comes to my house calling "Kakak AAAAAAAAAAna." pulling my hand, pointing into my room.

Since my mom cant conceive anymore, I can only hope my future boyfriend has a cute little adik. Either that or Kak Noor to get married and have kids ASAP. Whoever it is, they are gonna be so jealous as to how i dot the little ones.

I can't wait.

I want.
You want?

If only it's gonna be THAT easy.

I came across this person's post about marriage. I think something that is happening to his friend. did post a comment on his page. Actually i lied. I'm not a bloghopper. I hop there too frequent. And it did nothing but made me more and more cynical.

You're right Ma, Love and Marriage IS a gamble.

Yes, coming from a person whose Love is always a losing game.

Oh well. Remember what the wise man said Farhana.