I think i now at a point yg aku dah tak tau nak cakap ape and aku dah tak kuasa and aku dah memang tanak amik tahu because this has gotten very far, no shit. I am tired of everything in this not so safe anymore abode. THings has gotten out of hand really, of late. I am too tired to even think of the outcome and what may or may not happen. This is the reason why i will always speak my mind. I will tell the person why i don't like his/her course of actions and always beg to differ when i see fit. Because why? Because kalau kau simpan2 sampai jadi lobang hitam besar dalam hati kau, bile kau da geram nanti, kau lafaz kan semua, the other might well say "abeh bangkit" see where im getting at? I really don;t understand why people wait for the last straw of hope, with the intention to resolve everything there and then. It's close to impossible. I don't understand this. Tak suke, cakap. jangan simpan. Nie ah susahnya manusia. ye ye au "give and take give and take, compromise, bertolak ansur. aku paham aku paham" tapi nanti cukup time, bangkit semua kesilapan yg orang tu dah buat. Baru nak try to betolkan masalah. Baru nak betolkan care orang.Baru nak menyesal. Ah pat nie aku ckp ngan korang, "kau jangan nak step paham bertolak ansur and then ungkit2."

aku tak tau nak salahkan sape. ataoi for what i confirm plus chop plus stamped is, kalau aku berlaki AKU TAK AKAN berdiam diri. aku TAK AKAN tunduk mcm seladang babi and turut je ape laki aku cakap. aku tak akan angguk je. nak jadi isteri mithali lah konon. last2, bile tak tahan , ah nie ah jadi nye.

Memang ah sume orang kawin ade masalah. tapi kalau kau siman je masalah tu, boleh selesai ke masalah? tidak. aku heran. kau tak bilang orang tu yg kau tak suke care die, abeh kau expect die to berubah? mane mungkin. in the end masalah bertambah dan nanti beli gaduh, dah sapai limit kesabaran meletup mcm gunung api.

Worth it ke?

Nie ah arranged marriage, which i am totally against.

Aku tak paham.

so sekarang. kau tak suke, kau cakap.

cakap2, babies bile kite nak duduk full strength?