it's really silly for me to feel this way but somehow or rather it affects me in a way only i know why.

I feel not enough, ugly, stupid and i some other feelings i can't put a name to.

I think, the next time John asks how am i and how's school, imma just break down and cry. And tell him that i'm really not doing very good and i need his company so badly.

I mean, who was i kidding siak. I don't have a fucking idea why i'm like so disappointed towards i-don't-know-what.

She's lucky to be dating him. She's lucky to be married to him.She's lucky to be so smart. She's lucky she's a mix and she's pretty and he finds her Tagalong interesting. She's lucky that she has a cute not-so-litttle son and a mother in law who is super understanding. She's lucky she's got herself a hot cock to back her up in any low points of her life. He's lucky to be loved by 2 women at the same time.

And i, i am just lucky to be alive.?

i want to be that girl once more.

I'm a disgrace to myself for allowing me to be this way.

Slap me.

Slap me.

New fantasy needed.