Sleep has been a hassle ever since the news broke to me. I would be lying if i say it doesn't bother me that much. Somehow it does. Though it was mere months. So everything's on rewind. Being in the same spot of situation, at a different time is not funny at all. It's just a ride, but i'm so not enjoying this. It has got me reminiscing about the past, which i don't always do. [Okay brother bowl is a bit of an exception] And it got me tossing and turning late at night. Finding a boyfriend to forget is totally out of the question because of late i've lost myself. I gotta find my old me first because i love me then better than i love me now. I hate insecurities. I hate these inner conflicts within self. Anyways i can't even handle my own emotional baggage and i'm sure i can't handle another. What more a man's. But I am hoping you know, the sleepover with the bestfriend sometime next week or the following week will help me gather myself and regain whatever i've lost.

And the other night i was thinking about Atok. And it kinda made me regret that i wasn't there to say goodbye to him before he left for JB. I have a feeling that i won't see him anymore. I miss Atok.

Well, if this is what life has to throw at me. Here i go again with a facade. Quite an expert already.

I have to take 2 supps. But i scored A for Sosiology. And that's all that matters.

Sway me now, A fine frenzy.

Still mad as fuck about the Bird and the Bees