The thing about attending weddings is, now matter what a cynical fuck i am, i always feel like getting married. One day. To the right man. A French man who knows how to play Takraw and can sing me a similar Khilaf song. Berangan eh. well at least aku tak macam Yana eh nak kahwin atas cruise.

Wan looked so hot in that purple shirt eh. I was eating when he came over to say hi. "Makan ah makan." al-maklum, adik pengantin. We dont see each other often now lah since we don't meet at the cage now already because members-members banyak dah jadi askar. So i thought i'd catch him up after eating But then die dah ikot bertandang to the guys side. The wedding was generally okay. I think the pengantin has lost alotalot of weight, and Kak Mas the other sister had put on well, quite a bit of weight. Weight issue talks coming from me eh? Well get this, at the wedding my mom went around telling people how much weight they've put on. She was emabrrassing me, i hate it when she does that. Makes me feel like i'm a k-po's anak you know. And who likes getting "eh-you've -put-on-weight-eh" remarks? The person bloody well know he/she is putting on weight lah. Don't have to rub it in kan. Alah mentang2 my mother dah lose weight, eksyen. Tak suke ah. Okay aku feeling abit personal here because u know why eh.

And then after attending the wedding we went to IKEA just to buy a weighing scale. You see lah my mom. My family has been weight conscious oh so suddenly. Sometimes it's too much ah when my little sister asking me whether her butt is big, and my mom so petesly say i weigh more than her. Merepek sey. I so don't weigh heavier than you ah. And then i will occassionally tell my mom off ah to stop being so conscious because it brings harm to the little sister who sometimes refuse to eat tau. And then off late i also like tercarry ah nak lose weight and all. No, i KNOW i've been putting on weight but it scares myself out ah when i want myself to have a body like kak yaya. she's not sekeping but no tummy. Drastic xia. It's not me to be all skinny and lanky eh. But i haven't been myself lately lah kan.

And Nur Shahidah Ahmad. Aku jealous gila babi tengok kau eh. Aku pergi Rainbow trunk kau nye badan mcm kurus eh. Aku jealous eh. Okay the full force sit around belom lagi aku dah start confessing. Tapi takpe. Cakap-cakap, the plan for March ready ke tak? Dyla aku cannot tag ah kau nye tagboard something wrong.

Eh, 8th March ade flea market at Zouk and it's the International Woman's Day. If we get to go out on that day it'd be so stylo mylo ah.

I don't have job now lah. No work, no money, no money no talk. No talk no happy, like orang bisu. Then i want to buy heels. Yes Farhana dah nak start pakai heels but then no money how. And then i have that Blue Novo shoe to claim. Been eyeing that for the longest time sey. Yana, kau ape size, if same size can share because i know u also like. But then now no money so i shouldn't talk.

Eh, stress tau takde duit. Aku cume belen 30 ketek.

And kalau gemok pon stress tau eh.