I refuse to acknowledge the fact that we're not THAT close anymore because i know that the situation now is different. I am glad that you've seen how much i've grown. I am glad that you see me as an adult now. I still feel special because you told me things that she doesn't know about. I still do, because i know when things get bloody frustrating at home, you turn to me and whine about how shitty your life is. I feel special because you told me that "we complain to each other every now and then... to whom? to our significant other lah..."

I want you to know that you've changed so much also. I've been looking up to you a lot lately. I like it when you're most sensitive about correcting me in ways others don't. Like how you pretend to do a personal survey about "why good girls who find bad guys that prays irresistible?" I like it when you say "girls" instead of "you" because it may sound accusing. And i, in turn start getting all defensive to stand on my own ground. I say you know me all too well.

"He is someone beyond my reach, but who never abandon me either."

Yes, you are.

And i, choose to post here instead of where you'd be reading it because i have a huge ego.

So here you go, my two cents worth nothing.